Things have just been so bad lately and I can’t pinpoint where the depression is coming from. I wish that I knew what was causing ED to act out so much right now. I’m really hoping that I figure it out soon. I hope you guys are all doing better than me.

On a lighter note, how are you all liking this weather?! It’s a bit to hot for me but it’s a lot better than below freezing! In all honesty, I’m terrified of swim suit season. I want to prolong that agony for as long as I can…Ugh. Although, I can’t wait to spend all my time next to my babe with my toes in the sand. Well have a great rest of the week kiddies. Love youu.

A Clear in the Storm.

Sorry I haven’t been posting guys, I’ve just been busy and kinda sick. It seems that seasonal allergies are kicking my butt this year. I wake up with a migraine every single day and it doesn’t go away. =[ Other than that things are awesome! Friday night I stayed over at Sabrina’s house and we had so much fun! I can’t tell you when the last time I stayed over at a friend’s house was. Her Mom top 10 dating sites, my second Mom, made us breakfast in the morning and I was kinda worried about it. It ended up perfectly fine and the food was amazing. It was french toast with cream cheese, piled high with bananas, strawberries and blueberries. Then we added just a hint of powdered sugar, whipped cream-well !-and chocolate syrup. Yummyyyy! It was so freaking good! It got me thinking about how people without ED’s can so easily fit in all the dietary necessities and absolutely love it. Some thing bewilder me…

It was like this, only there was much more fruit and of course, the final touch toppings. =] Sorry I couldn’t get a real picture for you…

Then when I left her house on Saturday-she had to work-I took Bear to Barnes and Noble. =] We had a fun looking through silly books together. I actually picked up a book that I’m hoping will help me. For whatever reason, I was slightly embarrassed when I was looking through the psychology section, so I called Ryan for a little support. Having a little bit of support there at that time was helpful and it got me through and I realized that I was just being insecure.

That same night, Bear wanted a slurpee and guess what? I got one too! The last time I had a caloric beverage was…? Well, now I can say that it was Saturday night! I was proud of myself for being able to treat myself and not feel even the slightest bit guilty about it.

After Sabrina got off of work, she came back to my house and we spent the whole night talking and facebooking! We had so much fun, to say the least. Sunday was my day to relax and do nothing. After a long weekend of staying up late and laughing until my face hurt, I needed a break.

Don’t you just love that place?

Monday was yet another dreary day.=/ I would’ve been perfectly fine if my head didn’t feel like it was about to explode. My Mom picked me up from school and she knew I wasn’t feeling well. You would never guess what she did for me then!…She bought my Dunkin Donuts coffee! My head felt much better after that. =] I had a therapy session as well and when I was driving there, I was trying to think of what I needed to talk about and nothing was coming to my mind. As soon as I sat down in her office, I couldn’t shut up. Everything just came out, when I thought there was nothing in me to say. Let me just say that I felt so good afterwards.